Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Fiddle Camp

Fiddle Camp

So this summer I signed up for fiddle camp. The invitation came via Facebook, inviting youth thru adults who had never played, never even held a violin. Perfect description of my skill level. A week-long class, three hours a day, should help me decide if this is something I want to pursue. I signed up.

August 1-5, I was to be immersed in the fine art of fiddle playing.

Day One: I learn that I am the only adult in the class. Yep, the class was me and around 30 5-10 year olds. My pant leg was tugged more than once as a small child asked how to put the shoulder rest on their violin, how to tune the instrument, did they need to rosin up their bow. "I'm a student, not a teacher," was my reply. "But that lady over there can answer your questions."

I learned how to pick up and old my violin in the rest position. I learned how to get it to my shoulder - place your finger on the button, put the button to your ear, slide the violin to your shoulder, tilt your chin up, look to your left, lay your chin on the chin rest.

Excellent. One day in and I can get my violin safely from the case to my shoulder.

Then, on to percussion. We spent about 45 minutes each day working on a couple of percussion numbers which were to be part of the recital on friday. I became very aware of the age difference between my peers and me when the instructor said, "OK, you need to take the buckets off your heads." I looked around the room and at least half of my fellows had placed there buckets on their heads and were banging ferociously on them with their drumsticks. I am so past that!

Day Two: The kids now know, without a doubt, that I am their peer in this week's class. Ha! Told You!

This day there was actual playing. Once we had practiced getting the instrument to our shoulders several times, we started working on finger placement and plucked out a song (this would be the song we would play most for the duration of camp, and would perform at the friday recital. Yikes!) Over and over we played. Perfecting our little tune. As I focused on playing, on learning and doing my best, the differences in age seemed to disappear.

Day Three: Today we were introduced to our bows. Things started to get fun. Our song started sounding like a song. For fun we got to try a new song. One know-it-all girl started getting on my nerves. Every time the instructor would say something, Ms Know-it-All would add her own wisdom or correct her. This is the same day another youngster, I'm guessing she is on the Autistic spectrum, decided I was her protector. I was OK with that.

Day Four: Tomorrow was the big performance. We practiced and practiced - fiddling and banging on buckets. There were those who were scared, Those who were having fun, those who played well, and those who only thought they did. Seems like these are the same personalities that show up in just about every situation in life - school, career, parenting.

At the lunch break, Ms Know-it-All told my frightened, clingy charge that she could only go outside with the group if ... and she proceeded to rattle off her checklist. I do not know what came over me, but I looked at Ms Know-it-All and asked "who made you boss of the world?" I felt the hysteria bubbling up inside me. And for the life of me i can't explain it but it was very liberating to say those words again.

That night I practiced several times, feeling confident I could get through the recital.

Day Five: Ms Know-it-All was somewhat subdued (comparatively) so I know someone had a chat with her. We did a run through of the recital, and the parents started arriving. There are several I knew. One asked if I'm a teacher. "No, a student," I said. "That is very brave," she said as she laughed her way over to her seat. Another said, "I thought everyone knew only kids came to this camp." At this point, I had a little chat with myself. I could either go the totally self-conscious, freaked out route, or I could be playful and just go for it. I decide to go the playful direction and stick it out through the recital.

We started off with the percussion. My theory was that this was to numb our listeners sense of hearing before the fiddling began, but I could be wrong.

We, the beginners, played our song. And you know what? It sounded good. It sounded like a song. Woo Hoo. We did it!

Then, we had a couple of special guests who were expert players. Wow! If we practice (a lot) maybe we could play that well ... someday.

Finally, the intermediate group played several songs. They did great!

Now, a month later, I see my fellow fiddle campers around town. They come up and talk to me. What do we talk about? Fiddling, of course. For in that, we are the same age.

Friday, July 22, 2011

The Junk Drawer

Everyone has one. In it goes all the odds and ends, the tidbits that lack another logical home, and glimpses of our lives, habits, where we’ve been and what we’ve done. I speak, of course, of the Junk Drawer.

What’s in yours? What story does it tell?

One glance in my Junk Drawer tells much of my tale.

It is neat and orderly, which seems oxymoronical for a Junk Drawer.

You’ll see expired ski passes – mine, my sweetie’s, my youngest son’s. Those are in the front, left-hand corner.

And pens (yes, they all work), more pens than I could use in a lifetime. There are pens from faraway Marriotts and Hiltons. There are pens from exotic resorts in Jamaica, Mexico, Italy and France. There are a gajillion from Panhandle State Bank – do I get those when I make deposits or withdrawals?

Over here is a stack of coupons, long expired – pizza, girl products, toothbrushes. Guess I paid full price.

Batteries are rolling around in the Junk Drawer. I wonder if they are dead or alive.

Look, it’s the itty bitty screwdrivers my dad used to use. When he passed away, I got all of his hand tools. Funny, that’s all I would have wanted. Oh, and his old, beat up, well traveled leather jacket. What else would the Tomboy daughter want? I can’t count the hours I spent, as a wee lass, retrieving tools from the shed for my dad. Yes, I have brothers but … By the time I was 5 years old, I knew my way around the tool chests. If he yelled for a 7mm socket wrench, by golly that’s what I delivered. I always loved these mini-screwdrivers. Heck, they’re so cute, Barbi could love them.

In the back right corner is the organizer box. One compartment for needles for the bike and ball air pump, another has spare game parts – Monopoly, Cribbage. I’ve got push pins, straight pins and needles … Pins and Needles? Here is some florist wire, which is one of the handiest things a girl can have on hand. Well, that and cammo duct tape! I’ve got nails and screws, for nailing and screwing. There are wall anchors of all shapes and sizes, Canada coins and rubber bands.

You’ll find a couple of decks of cards – full decks, a cribbage board, and a local phone book. And where did all of these wine corks come from?

Finally, there are the keys. What are all these keys? What did they open or lock? When last used, did they leave things locked or unlocked? I like to think unlocked, that the last click the doors and padlocks felt was one of opening - of freedom.

Instead of throwing away the key, I put it in the only logical place, my Junk Drawer

Thursday, February 3, 2011

A Love Story and a Love Song

I am one of the lucky people. I have a few good friends who see me, the true me. Through their eyes I am more than I ever imagined.

They look at me and see a woman who can sing. Who can write songs. Who is a true and dedicated friend. Who is fun (who, me?). Who is carefree. Who makes them laugh. Who is compassionate. Who listens.

There must be something wrong with their vision! I spend most of my time afraid. I tear up songs in fits of frustration and toss them in the fire. I’m awkward and clumsy socially. I blurt out stupid stuff all the time. I’m frozen in place by indecision, sure that any decision I make will be the wrong one.

I tell myself this is who I am, that my friends don’t know me. I am not the person they think they see. But what if …

What if there is something to what they see? What if I could do these things? What if I could be this person? What if …

Some people see right to our hearts and souls. They don’t see, or at least they don’t focus on our weird little quirks and defensive behaviors. They see the stripped down, childlike person we once were. The one who sang at the top of her lungs. The one who wrote silly songs with no agony or judgment. The one who made spontaneous decisions and had no regrets.

The simple fact that they see us, the true us, frees us to become our deepest, bravest, most creative, delightful selves.

If you are a person who looks at others through Beautiful Eyes, thank you. You have surely set people free to, once again, show their greatness. I am filled to the brim with gratitude for the men, women and children who have put me on a better path by helping me see, and be, the best that’s in me.

This song, Beautiful Eyes, is dedicated to all the people who see us through their beautiful eyes.

Beautiful eyes, see to the heart of me
Beautiful eyes, see to the soul of me
Beautiful eyes, find only the good in me
Your beautiful eyes see me, free me, to be me

Enjoy a free download of Beautiful Eyes

Happy Valentine’s Day and much love every day,

Dawnya Clarine

Saturday, January 8, 2011

For Passion not Pay

Earlier this week, we had a couple of traveling, performing songwriters couch surf with us. Our town is one of several stops they will make on their winter tour.

They were playing at one of our favorite watering holes, Eichardt’s. We stopped in to introduce ourselves, and to listen for a while.

Burke, stage name Church Mouse, writes and performs tunes of a darker nature. He uses two vocal mics, which give his voice a haunting, almost forlorn feel. Tunes that make you think.

Adam is idealistic and innocent. Everything about him feels happy. He uses the base of his stool to tap out rhythms with his feet – sorta like a toned down clog-dance - while playing the guitar, singing and smiling. Cool!

Musicians, songwriters, creatives of any sort really, love to talk to others who share their passion. So despite their long day of driving, setting up for their gig, playing, tearing down, packing up, and driving to our place, Burke and Adam wanted to talk (and so did we).

We talked about what inspires our songwriting, how we get started, what blocks us, what sets us free. We talked about our fears and our joys of performing. We shared stories of the road - our best and worst gigs. And, we swapped the names of venues that attracted appreciative audiences.

The best venues often can’t afford to pay, so you play for tips. Many times you play and sing your heart out, and the people walk by as if you weren’t even there. So why do it? Why drive over mountain passes in the middle of winter? Why spend time, gas, miles, and money to play? Why pack the gear in and out of venues and drive through the night to the next gig?

Ask Adam. Ask Burke. Ask the guy in the grocery store parking lot who plays his sax and gives it all he’s got when it’s only 27 degrees outside. They will all give you the same answer, “because we have to.”

When I wrote Man on the Corner I was thinking about the buskers who play in the rain, and snow, and the heat of the day. I was remembering the artists who bare their souls in the dim corners of bars, or noise filled coffee shops. I was writing a tribute to all the players who probably didn’t even cover the cost it took them to get there.

Dawnya Clarine
Soul Appeal